My family went out of town this weekend. The last few years their out of town weekends have been my vacation alone at home weekends. I find it peaceful and relaxing when I'm here alone. Well, so much for that. I had my nephew friday evening while my sister worked. Then I went to bed and was awakened at the butt crack of dawn by the phone. It was my sister, not feeling well, wanting me to come get my nephew. I mumbled something about when I woke up I would get him, but that it would be awhile. I picked him up about lunch time and took him home around 8:00. By the time I got back it was almost time for bed. I woke up this morning, went to church and then picked up my nephew on my way home from church. My family was back when I got home from picking him up, and my mom took him back home tonight. All in all, I think I had about two hours to myself the whole weekend, not counting sleeping and church. I love my nephew. I love him more than I knew it was possible to love someone. But, at the same time I really missed my weekend to myself. My family will be gone again next weekend. I'm not looking forward to it so much because my 10 year high school reunion is Saturday night. Yes, I am old.
Today was Graduate Sunday at Church. There was a video of the five guys who graduated from high school. It went all the way from baby pictures to current pictures. Also, they spoke on it, saying what they planned to do now. Then their parents spoke about them and told embarrasing childhood stories. I am so glad that was not done when I graduated. I was thinking today that I barely remember graduation. I remember someone spoke and that it was in my school gym, and that it was way too long to only be having 19 people graduating. I went to a small private school. I have only spoken to maybe 3 of my classmates since graduation. I would not call any of them friends. I also feel like I haven't accomplished much and I'm definatly not where I thought I would be at this point in my life. I feel like the class "looser." Pray for me to not feel this way and for me to be confident and not turn into the shy, quiet person I was in high school. I'm still quiet, but not nearly as quiet as I was. I'm scared I'm going to go Saturday night and regress back to who I was then. I'm so much more outgoing and confident now. That is who I want to be Saturday. I want to be myself.
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