Feeling Down

I did a bunch of stuff today. I saw Stephanie, a woman who's little boy I keep sometimes. Stephanie and Andy (her husband) are my age, they met at Harding University and now they live here. Stephanie just had a baby girl 7 weeks ago.
Things are going good for me right now, so why do I feel lonely and down in the dumps? I was around people at Church tonight and I talked to people, but I still felt really alone for some reason.
I've talked about this before, but I see people my age that have good marriages and babies, and I can't help feeling a little jealous. That's what I want more than anything. I just have this really strong longing to be with someone and to get married. Maybe it's my biological clock ticking or something, but being single is really starting to get old.
I had to go to a friends from the Bicycle Club's office today to run 2,750 copies of the Flyer. It will be mailed out next week. Buying the paper myself, and using Brenda's work copier (a big one just like at Kinko's) saved over $400.00. Normally at Kinko's that many copies runs me about $500.00. So, I am proud of myself.
While I was at her office I saw this guy, then I did a double take and looked at him again. He was the same height (6'6"), same build (very skinny) and same hair color (brown), and even close to the same facial features, as my ex Fiance. It was really freaky. Except this guy was cuter than Bryan and when he smiled at me, he looked nothing like him. Bryan never really smiled.
Bryan was a big mistake. I rushed into the relationship, got engaged way to fast, and then saw his uncaring, hurtful side. I thank God that I didn't marry him. Bryan broke up with me when my broken arm was at it's worst, right before my second surgery on it. I wasn't fun enough, and didn't want to do enough (I had a washer end of a screw poking out my arm from the inside...much, much pain). The funny thing was that when we broke up, I felt more relieved than anything. I had known that I couldn't marry him. I saw that the day after I broke my arm, but I blamed it on all the painkillers I was on. I had surgery about a week or two after we broke up, they removed the screw from my arm at that time, and I got off painmed's right away. So basically, I was back to my normal self, about 2 weeks after we broke up.
It really hurts to have someone look you in the eye and say that they don't love you anymore. Even though I knew I didn't love him, I'm not sure that I ever loved him. I thought I was through with guys and I would just be single forever. About a year after things ended with Bryan, I started feeling ready for a relationship. now, three years later, here I am still waiting on that relationship.
One reason I'm still waiting is that I am super picky now. I know exactly what I don't want in a guy, and I know that he must be a Christian. I know a lot of people don't feel this is important, but I want someone who is a member of the Church of Christ and has similar beliefs to mine about worship. I know I could date right now, if I would settle for less than what I want, but I want someone who I can see Christ in, and I'm not going to settle for less.